an ti ci pation

Waiting is the hardest part. Seems to be all I'm doing lately. Right now? Waiting for 8:30 so I can call the Dr.'s office for directions. Why? So I can take a blood test to confirm what 4 previous 3 minute waits have told me. But the Dr. saying it makes it real. If it is true, I'm not giving it up. But it also means all my careful plans will now have an 8 lb. wrench in them. So its waiting. with the patience of a statue.