New beginnings

Just in case anyone is watching...

I'm trying this again... blogging seems to be good to get through alot of big changes, and boy do I have some changes coming.

1. Sell the house
2. Buy new house
3. MOVE
4. Quit job
5. Kick ass as a stay at home mom.

All this happens (in my head) in a 5 month time span. So, yeah, keep watching. Something fun is bound to happen.

a prayer to the universe

I want to go home. I miss my family and I want to move closer to them. Someone please give my husband a job somewhere south of Kansas. I can't take much more of where we are, and I miss my family so much it hurts. I thought I could do this but I just can't anymore. Please let me go home.

take 2

ahh, fall

so today was the first day in about 3 weeks that i didn't need a coat to get to work. 70, windy, nice. but now its dark. and that sucks.

the tired has set in. i had an afternoon of fittings, and a morning of fittings tomorrow, and i'm tired and all i can think about is sleep and i know andy wants to be romantic but i'm just tired. and i'm usually nauseous by bedtime. so, sorry babe. maybe next month.

bleh.

how do you make a hormone?

Don't pay her! (ok, just bad...)

So this weekend was rough. Spent Saturday and Sunday an emotional baskecase, ranging from super righteously pissed off to crying and weeping when i thought about anything involving family. jesus. and then, this morning I had the first REAL round of morning sickness...more than just rolly stomach but full out nausea thinking please god just let this end! Got a ginger ale and some funyons and was fine...surprisingly.

New and improved?

blood update: first round of tests came back with low numbers...retesting all week. ouch. low numbers are a common sign of early miscarriage.

C offered me a raise this summer and better job, but unsure if i can take it, as IF baby comes it will be sometime in June. Kind of sucks for C and me. Oh well.

Again, waiting for test results. Today is A's birthday. I forgot this morning. I'm such a bad wife.

oh jesus

as if there weren't enough pressure to land this job, i found out my insurance kicks off if i'm not renewed (unlike the scenario painted by certain former students). I can keep minimal coverage for another $400-$800 a month, but come May 15 I'm off. Please god, let me get this job. I can't afford not to.

an ti ci pation

Waiting is the hardest part. Seems to be all I'm doing lately. Right now? Waiting for 8:30 so I can call the Dr.'s office for directions. Why? So I can take a blood test to confirm what 4 previous 3 minute waits have told me. But the Dr. saying it makes it real. If it is true, I'm not giving it up. But it also means all my careful plans will now have an 8 lb. wrench in them. So its waiting. with the patience of a statue.